Crazy!... I'm not crazy!
trying to get away
wanting to kill the pain
hating today
contemplating the gain
mind blurred, eyes a haze
body numb, hands shakey
red scars become a blaze
life becomes flakey
tears well up, make-up smears
i hate you, i love you, i sob and cry
i remember your laughter and cheers
i think back and wonder why
all you were is dead to me
and yet the memories won't let me be